The door banged and you stormed out and now I sat alone dejected in turmoil with a heaving chest. My shattered world spinning furiously around me, my body retching painfully and my eyes burning with tears. My head was pounding and I was in emotional pain, my feelings were swallowed by the intense grief causing my body to be numb.
The memory and fantasy of the argument became blurred, and the reality and falsehood indistinct from one another and the truth eluded all rationalising. The reason for the argument was not even apparent and now seemed so pointless and demeaning .
The feelings that I couldn’t express to you were now locked away forever, making me feel weary and tired in my troubled mind. My mind is in confusion, turmoil, despair, I feel so alone like no one could care. I don’t know why we had to argue, angry words were said both by you and I. Can we not forgive and forget and make a new start??
And almost as if you can read my mind, the phone rang and desolately, I answered, it’s you sheepishly saying, “I am sorry can we still be friends?” A smile adorned my tear stained face, my heart started to float on clouds of joy. The tears in my heart were washed away, as the rainbow peeped cheekily from beyond the black cloud. A sigh of relief, of happiness brought back the peace to my soul and mind. My heart no longer crying at the thought of loosing your friendship “Yes we can be friends again, of course we can, I would like nothing better”………..”I am sorry too.” I replied …….”THERE SHOULD BE NO EGOS BETWEEN FRIENDS!!!!”
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